checking your phone after leaving the cinema
Went to see Babygirl with a friend last night - we had a lot of fun, but I thought the film was an incoherent mess (we talked about it a lot after leaving the cinema though).
Turned my phone on to see two messages - one from my boyfriend telling me David Lynch had died, and one from my mum telling me that my Gran was in hospital, and the results of the tests they'd been doing to find out what was wrong with her had shown she's got extensive tumours.
She's had Alzheimer's for the past few years. My mum said "she was upset for 5 or 10 minutes but has forgotten it. So all efforts are to keep her comfortable." That's simultaneously a blessing and one of the saddest things. It's discomforting to see someone you know lose the faculty to remember, and before she forgets she's lucid enough to know (and to know people are treating her differently) and be upset.
It's a blessing in a way she'll forget to be upset, but she's robbed of the chance to understand and process what's happening.
I don't know why I'm juxtaposing these things together in this post. Because they're juxtaposed together in my life? I feel selfish, living my life in a different city away from my family.