new year same old
I've really fallen off blogging this year. I didn't get much interaction on this blog anyway, but bear is a small platform and I'd like to think some people might have noticed.
When I got sick in December I got out of the habit. And since the new year started I've had a mental block on any routine. I intended to start both a daily yoga practice and a daily quote writing practice, as well as improving my phone use... I've done none of it.
I'm choosing to see it not as a failure but a rebellion against the idea of the signifancance of the new year? Regardless, I've decided not to feel bad about it.
I've continued the things that are important to me - I've been journalling, I'm working my way through a January film list of christmassy/nye themes films - this week I rewatched The Apartment and saw Carol for the first time.
For new years my boyfriend and I stayed with his friends in the Gower. I had a heavy period and migraine and it got me down a bit that I was starting the new year that way. But we also had great company, and it was sunny and freezing and we went for a dip in the sea that made me feel alive.
