things I wanted to blog about this week
I haven't been blogging lately but I've got a lot things I wanted to blog about, even thought I can't write a full post.
I've been thinking about going to playgrounds again - I feel so clumsy and I want to get a sense of my body. My boyfriend goes mountain biking and falls off his bike. I want to run and jump and feel confident in my own feet (see my thoughts about juggling, from previous posts).
I've booked on to an improv class because I'm fed up of tripping over my words and not saying what I mean to say. I'm not sure if it'll help, but it should push me out of my comfort zone.
I've been to a lot of weddings recently. I've ended up with the resolution not to be jealous of the happiness of others. But I do think a lot of the time I just assume everyone else in going through life in a sort of miserable haze, so it hurts to see people who genuinely seem to have found happiness. Can I admit that?
Maybe try thinking about others a bit more? Perhaps part of the solution is to think outside, rather than worrying the knot of your brain over and over again. Have more confidence in your own opinions.
Something my mum said when I tried to take a photo of her on our day out which made me wonder if people always see themselves as their younger selves, forever, and how sad that is.
The idea of having an ai page - (I don't use ai to write, for the record - but I have used it for work and for code). How I want to improve my writing - I'd like to practice trying to recall and capture impressions of people and conversations, rather than the tings I do day to day and my own thoughts.
I've been reading Jane Eyre for book club and the detail with which Bronte writes about Jane's thoughts and interactions is something I really enjoy about the book.