Weeknotes 11 (less weeknotes, more stream of consciousness~)
😈 I've failed to write this on time again. I also need to write up the horror films I've been watching for the newsletter I write with my friend this week.
😣 Friday to Sunday this week has been full of migraine - I took three tablets on Saturday and two on Sunday. Grateful they're effective but worried about how many I'm using.
😓 I had a nice day out with my boyfriend Sunday, then got home and cried after making dinner because I know we don't want the same things so this is doomed. I don't know how to stop thinking about this. I do know and it's communicating my feelings, but I still find it very hard.
💕 I am grateful I've come to the realisation that being more honest with myself and other people though. I felt very hopeless and isolated earlier this year when I had no idea how to deal with the feelings I was experiencing.
📚 I've nearly finished both Losing Eden by Lucy Jones and Doppleganger by Naomi Klein. They're both so interesting, I've been trying to take a lot of notes from both and keep interesting quotations and thoughts. Doppleganger covers so much ground over how we live now and the current political landscape (too much, you might say, but it's a very impressive effort and so much of this stuff is interconnected) and Losing Eden contains a lot of research to back up why nature is important to our well-being, why we should spend time outside and why this stuff isn't just fanciful woo-woo afterthoughts.
📝 Unfortunately, one of these books is a library book and the other one I'm listening to on spotify audiobooks, so I'm really struggling to save quotes and collate my thoughts without a) having the time to linger and b) photograph lines I want to keep.
🍂 Off the back of Losing Eden, I went on a walk to the Botanical gardens on Saturday - I picked up a feather, took off my shoes and walked on the grass, and generally tried to absorb nature - it was nice. The above photo was taken in the hot house.
🏛 I went to an art gallery on Wednesday and tried to do some candid street (gallery?) photography. I'm conflicted - my favourite types of photos are street photos, but I have doubts about photographing people without their consent. No one really sees the photographs I take, so I feel ok about it for my own hobby, but it gives me pause when I think about pushing it further.
😕 I enjoyed the exhibits a lot - I tried to have a conversation with my boyfriend about it after, and he didn't really get it which also put me in a bit of a funk. I also think aspects of some art are not to my taste or just plain stupid, but I still think there's a value in the process of creation and allowing people to try different things.
🧗♀️ I've been feeling very blue about climbing recently as I've made no progress, so I'm taking a bit of a break.