Weeknotes 7
I forgot to do weeknotes 7 this Sunday because I was busy, so I'm doing it today - do I even need this blog anymore? Is anyone even here?
- Being busy is the theme of this week - I've spent some of today at work planning, organising things an messing it up and getting more and more stressed. Fun!
I don't have many links for you this week - at least not that I haven't seen elsewhere. I related to this post though, re some of the things I've been thinking about posting online and having any sort of online presence - the creative urge vs urge to be seen.
Suddenly, I feel like Iām eight years old again, longing for recognition and friendship. Iām not simply looking to be in a circle; I want to occasionally be at the center of the circle, and I hate that about myself.
Really, it's too embarrassing.
I went to a Brat x SOPHIE clubnight on Saturday, and on the way home I listened to a lot of SOPHIE, which I wasn't so familiar with - especially her album Oil of Every Pearl's Un-Insides.
The club night was more fun than I thought it would be, although I still oscillated between I hate all these people, why are they touching me and I love this song, I love my friends etc. There was a Springbreakers -> 212 -> Von dutch -> Perfect (Exceeder) run from the DJ that nearly killed me, and I got back to the hotel damp with sweat. I was worried about doing it without smoking, but it was fine! That was a relief.
I made this post about being a recovering romantic and then I got over myself a bit. I don't know if it's the CBT, the anti-depressants, the effort I'm making to be a bit more appreciative of the good things in my life, but I'm feeling a lot more positive about my relationship and my life, it's been really nice recently. Baby steps :)
I got some photos developed from this month - not a lot that I liked, but here's a couple - you can click them to see them bigger.
- I went to dog life drawing which was just incredibly lovely. My favourite model was Penny, a nine-year old golden retriever who waddled about happily doing her own thing. This is a really bad drawing I did of her.
And this is a drawing I did of Molly the greyhound, who slept most of the session <3
