Why does it always feel like there's never enough time?
Got everything I wanted to do last week done, it was a nice feeling. I had a haircut, went to a pub quiz, painted a card for my mum (tulips) and sent it, returned some clothes I bought for an event I didn't wear.
I've tried to develop a theory that you can only do 1 or 2 things a day. This is to make me feel better about my inability to get things done while waiting for other things to happen. I use it to try and relax myself when I feel like I haven't done enough.
I haven't been updating my meditation log that much. I feel like I've reached a plateau with it, so I've been seeking out some guidance. I found a book in a charity shop Practical Zen: Meditation and Beyond by Julian Daizan Skinner, which I'm going to read. On Wednesday this week I also went to my local meditation centre to check it out. I don't know the difference between the types of meditation yet, but they had a very cute café with a relaxing garden and they do a Wednesday lunchtime session, so I'm planning to check it out next week.
The meditation centre garden
After visiting the meditation centre, the migraine headache I'd had since I'd woken up got worse and I ended up going home to lie in bed - I watched telly all evening and didn't get anything down that I wanted to do. I've always found planning my weeks out and creating lists fun and relaxing, but sometimes it just feels overwhelming - especially when health issues, mental or physical, come up and shatter your plans. I'm trying to work on finding it less disheartening. It's so disappointing to find yourself having to skip a plan because of migraine and wondering if you should just power through, or leaving a social event crying when you thought you had been doing much better with your mental health.
I think of this process of resisting feeling disheartened or angry with myself (for things I didn't choose) as building resilience, and that gives me some hope whenever I feel like I'm sliding back in a way I can't control.
This garden looked really beautiful in the sunset